A new feeling!

It was a moment filled with mixed emotions for me. A second of extreme happiness and the next one full of anxiety. I guess this is how one feels, when they find out for the first time that they are going to be a mom! MOM....Now that’s a fully loaded word...isn’t it?! Well but the feeling grows on you as one progresses into pregnancy.

I am so excited and waiting so eagerly for my little one to come into my world. I have always been a pampered little girl of my parents and now it is so hard to believe that am soon going to be a mother myself! I guess it is equally hard for my parents to digest the fact that their little angel has grown up so big to be a mom herself! But I am totally loving the feeling of motherhood...of being pampered and the truth that God has given me an opportunity to be a part of the creation! I don’t think one can understand what that feels like unless one experiences it themselves.

When I was a little kid, I always loved playing “ghar-ghar” with my grandmom, and I always wanted to and played the mom! My grandmom would be my little daughter for whom I would cook, teach, play with...! She was sweet enough to let me be the mom and rule over her. I remember scolding her like mom scolded me while teaching her!! I loved that feeling of being the boss..of being the mom. Those were beautiful, carefree days. I had no idea how much responsibility being a mother brings along. Now that the childhood game is coming alive and real, I am so anxious and scared...and hope that I can play the role of being an ideal mother, just like my mom and my grand-mom!

These days my thoughts are filled with how my little one would be, who would it be..a girl or a boy! Like me or his dad! What should I do so that the moment the baby arrives; he has all the comforts he would need? I keep thinking of what I should eat, what I should read, how I should exercise...etc etc! I was always health conscious, but never so obsessed with my health, that I am now-a-days..!I just want my baby to grow well and to be absolutely healthy.

As my belly grows every day, I can’t help admiring God for his amazing ways. I mean it’s so hard to believe that I am carrying a miniature version of me and my hubby inside me!! I don’t think there can be a feeling more beautiful than this! Or maybe I will change my mind when I hold my baby for the first time!!!