ON THE CARTWHEEL OF DREAMS..OF HOPES!

Well..just anohter of my blues..a mode wherein i feel like writing...
though i really dunno..wots goin to come out of it...but i still want to write...
Its one of those days when i revert back into my past to look at all that i have been...all the events that have occured..
all that i have become because of those events..all that i wanted to be..and all that ...that I am not..!I dont want to sound as if i have had a horrible past...i have not..
but its just a few incidents that sometimes happen..which changes ones life...its just those few that was talkin about..
I have always wanted to be a winner...Right on the top....ahead of everyone else...flyin high..touching the sky...
...i wish i had the wings to fly...i would have gone far by now...beyond the imaginations...higher than the highest!
But the fact is that i dont have wings...i cant fly...besides, I have my limitations...limitations that being a girl puts on u.
I have the dreams...but but no space to spread its wings...
Even in the little space i have...Iam bounded...i can move only as much as iam allowed to...the space that my bosses decide for me...
i have to do what they think is right...i can rise, only if they let me!
I feel restricted...and it gets so suffocating at times...Y cant i have my own ideas and implement them...if it works..it will benefit everyone..
if it fails ..it will be my failure...but atleast i will be satiated!
I have lost My nerves...my mind is not at peace.....working was my passion..now i have lost the fervour..
I can see my dreams slipping away from my hands...i try holding them tighter...still no use...right before my eyes..they are getting coalesced with the sands of time..fading away...
The fire withn me is charring my innerself...unable to foster itslef...
I have nurtured my hopes for too long now...saturnine expressions are now taking over...
But..iam not going to relent...i will not get lost in the crowd..I will not let them hold me back...I will not follow the path set by others for me...
i will make my own...and shine all through!

"when the goings get tought..the tough gets going, when u cant find a way..you have to make one!"